17 November 2009

a day of celebration

Today is a day of celebration for me and my little family. I celebrate my beautiful wife's LIFE. On this day one year ago she was struck by an SUV while walking on the sidewalk near our home. I wrote about it then. From that moment on our lives (and especially her's) have not been the same. Weeks in the hospital, then hospital bed at home, then months of physical therapy, continuing pains, and all the rest of life (wife, mother, homeschool teacher, and pregnant again) have been her existence. For the rest of our lives November 17th will continue to bring back the memories of near tragedy and great pain. But this day is also a day of great thanks. I am so thankful that Maricel is still with us and thriving. I am so blessed to have her as my wife, and our daughters are so blessed to have her as their mother. That she is with us, that our family is whole and growing, makes this season that much more joyful.

11 November 2009

Waiting for Monet

Monet painted many lilies,
vibrant under a summer light
more so than even life,

but life in winter
with its bare trees in the park
and its buried bulbs
has another vibrance
that Monet also knew I'm sure.
Think of the beauty of a starry night
above the high desert where
city lights are forgotten;
those lights speckling the darkness
are really just stars in an
immenseness so much more
than all the stars put together,
and yet we fall down before
all that beauty
like toppling statuaries.
But we have not really acquiesced,
like when we drove out before dawn
through thick stubbles of sheared hay
under and moonless sky as we opened
stretched barbed wire gates and
following barely visible tracks
toward the canal
then checked our pockets for cartridges
and our packs for lunches.
We beheld the sky
once blanketed with stars
lit up with pale blue and the
dotted lines of high flying geese.
We waited motionless
for the low flying ducks.
We hid like children
playing adults playing soldiers
fighting the force of nature.
There was really no acquiescence
except the fading stars before
the sun, then the sun,
then the stunning beauty
of the fragile beasts
dead in our hands, gutted,
and their dead eyes still staring,
perhaps pleading,
as though God's eyes might

be looking for an answer
to a question He will ask
at an undisclosed time.
And the line is drawn
to the killing of all things
and the spilling of blood
overspilling the altars.
From tabernacles everywhere,
those sacred places we call home
and elsewhere,
the ground cries out
like it did to heaven when
Cain shrugged and really
did not think it such
a big deal,
though he must have thought
it would be nice for lambs
and lions to get along at least.
But today soldiers walk the streets
where they say the garden
must have been,
and where the angel with
the flaming sword left
his post eventually of boredom.
Other angels came later
carrying messages. They always
seem to start with “Be not afraid”
but I think they were joking,
a little fun you know,
because angels do not normally
get out much I would think.
I also think Monet saw the stars,
and the dead eyes questioning,
and the horrors war.
Yet I doubt he saw an angel
whether with message
or with sword.
But he did paint water lilies
as though he was teaching God
something about His creation
something that God already knew
but was waiting
for Monet.

05 November 2009

26 individuals simultaneously lose

On some show called Your Next Move, Gary Kasparov played chess against 26 individuals simultaneously. Here are some highlights, with Nigel Short narrating:



Watching others play chess is not always the the most exciting thing to do. It's better to play. But it is fascinating to see someone so capably play 26 simultaneous games, and then win them all. Of course one could say that is expected from Kasparov. The goal, as one of his opponents, is to hold out as long as possible and then recognize when it is time to concede defeat.

01 November 2009

Alberto Salazar, 1981 NYC Marathon

Once, in the early '80s (probably around the time of the '81 NYC marathon) when working out at my highschool track after school (I competed in shotput/hammer/javelin/discus for the team) Salazar came by to do some laps. We watched him run faster than anyone on our team could possible run lap after lap. After about 25 laps he left. We thought it was cool. Needless to say he was one of the greats.

31 October 2009

Some Vincent for Halloween





Happy All Saints Eve


Halloween party in Blarney, Ireland, in 1832 by Daniel Maclise.

30 October 2009

The Tell-Tale Heart (1953)

29 October 2009

Happy 40th Internet!

40 years ago today the first two nodes of what would become the ARPANET were interconnected between UCLA's School of Engineering and Applied Science and SRI International in Menlo Park, California. ARPANET was the birth of what we now call the Internet.